It’s funny how much you can be infatuated with someone that you don't even know. but you think you do?

Last night couple friends of mine went out to our local music cafe, to watch an evening of two talented musician’s sooth our ears with their hearts. I sat there cozy between friends in our seats watching dreamily. Imagining one day that could be me up there, pouring out original songs and making funny jokes and stories to the crowd. After the first musician played, another joined the stage for their spot light performance. He walked up smiling and thanked the crowd for being here. I sat there with my camera on my lap watching and drawing out each outline of his face. I snapped a quick photo of him laughing to the crowd as he tuned his guitar, asking them to wait patiently. My heart slightly began to race, I didn't know why, but there was something about him that caught my attention. Then he sang, and my heart just flew. His voice melted me. I couldn't help myself to fall in love. It’s crazy how fast the heart can fall for somebody that you barely know. I guess I've always been that way though? I've always been the type to fall in love at first sight. But some say that there is no such thing as love. It's a fantasy. I like to think otherwise.

brothers

Id have to say my best friend is my brother. We share a bond I haven't found in any other friend before. We get each other so well. we know how to make each other laugh, and know exactly how much cream and sugar to put in each others coffees. My brother has always been the one to tell me the truth about an issue I'm dealing with. We're completely honest with each other when asking advice on a relationship, or if the sweater I'm wearing looks good or not (the simply things haha) Or when one of us isn't feeling good, he's always there to throw a blanket around me while watching tv. my brother is my rock, my shield, my laughter. I be lost in this big old world if he wasn't here to protect me. he always knows what to do when i come home with broken heart. He smiles with that goofy little grin of his and i can't help myself to smile back. my brother is my best friend. and I wouldn't want it to be anybody else. Because its impossible for anybody else to even try to fill the stop he has.

But I also like to mention my older brother, who I love equally as well. Hes the goof of the family. He loves experiencing all that life has to offer him. He's a dreamer and always carrying me along on his many ideas. My older brother may be tall and intimidating, but he has a heart of gold.

I'm so blessed to have these two amazing men in my life to call home.

stillness

its the dead of night and my family is sound asleep in their beds. dreaming dreams that are dancing like smoke into the brisk autumn air, coming through the open windows. and with my bare skin wrapped tightly in blankets. I hear my parents talking softly to each other across the hall, of relatives coming for Thanksgiving. Their voices dance down the halls and through my room, soothing my heavy eyes to sleep. My home is within me, wherever I go, but home is here now, At times though I feel stuck in this house. traveling gave me purpose and left me with no time to think deeply. at times it is easier to regard the past as something that happened to someone else, like a girl in a novel or a film. at other times it’s too difficult to pretend. but the morning comes and the most beautiful smiles enter my life. with eyes aglow like mine and i can’t possibly be any happier. i feel my heart constantly growing to allow room for all the love i have for my family. with them here and a house that is growing into a nest of our inspirations and ideas, I feel content, why leave such love that embraces me everyday? though my soul aches for the open road and sleeping under those starry mountain skies. I know my place is here, for now.

we,
took a trail then to the beach where, we heard the music play before.
the fires they went on forever, like flaming jewels on the shore.
we sat there soaking up the starlight, and sang aloud to every song
even though we didn't know the words, we made them up as we went along
- Hey Ocean