day lines fade into coffee stains. which then smudge into sunset hazes
what a view from my sunlit window

on the way to another new home, looking out towards the streets
of guns and arrows
and different faces remind me of those i love, far form here.

Crystal waters in the blue bank
shinning far form what the eyes see
i try to swim far and far away
but my body sinks lightly above
i go away and hide into the sunlit stars
far from breaking those crystal hearts

the sun goes and shines across my bedroom wall
looking at the light i cant help but wonder
do you miss me at all?

school yard blues and dirty shoes
kicking around the yard
i leave it all behind
the day light fades quickly
and i cant help but wonder
do you ever think of me?

down by the hidden creek by the bend
the willow leaves fall down above our heads
all day we stay under the sun as it went down
a constant sea of horses
city valleys turn up the sound and bring it out again
the sea brings out the diamonds
and i look at you and cant help but wonder
will we ever meet again?

lover, it wasn't easy to pretend
even the day you left, i was just there as a friend
no i never dreamed i ever let you go
once this was the biggest place and now this is small too
why was i so scared of loving you?
i guess i can just confess i really needed you

Today is going to be great - tell yourself that everyday. small amounts of positivity can go a long ways in others and in your own self. for thoughtful wishing creates a healthy mind and heart. which then grow to healthy actions.

its all about that coffee

he had at the biggest grin on his face, as i poured hot water into the french press. my brother has two favorite things in life. 1) his beard and 2) his morning coffee. He begged me (mostly annoyed me) all morning to make him coffee. Finally i gave into his ways. He stood against the counter watching me steep the coffee as he played with the ends of his hair. grabbing our favorite mugs from the cabinet, we sat outside on the patio as i poured each of us a cup. He sat there beside me with content. a huge smile on his face. i laughed as i looked away sipping my coffee. we just sat there and didn't talk really. just soaked in the morning haze, the smell of the first few days of summer and the calm breeze against our hair. after a few minutes of quiet my brother looked over at me and paused. i looked back and saw the sweetest grin on his bearded face. he put his arm around my shoulders and said, "You're one awesome sister, you know that?" putting my head on his shoulder i replied "right back at ya, bro." with our coffee's in hand and the sun rising higher in the sky. I felt beyond blessed. I am one lucky sister, to have a brother like i do.

like you.

all i want is nothing more
to hear you knocking at my door
cause if i could see your face once more
i could die happy i am sure

when you said your last goodbye
i died a little bit inside
i lay in tears in bed all night
alone without you by my side

if you loved me why did you leave me
take my body, take my body
all i want is and all i need is
is to find somebody
i will find somebody

you brought out the best of me
a part of me i never seen
you took my soul and whipped it clean
our love was made for movie screens

but if you loved me, why did you leave me?
take my body, take my body
cause all i want is and all i need is
is to find somebody, i'll find somebody

like you.

(i miss you, j.)

today, was a pretty day
no disappointments, no expectations of your where-a-bouts
oh then i let you go

today i didn't even try to hide
i stay here and let them push to the side
you can't reach me cause I'm way behind you today

today was a pretty day
i didn't even look to find
to find a peace of mind
you can't touch me
cause you're behind me today

gimme gimme that love I've been waiting forrrreee YA! gimme that hand lets go dance

its just another night and I'm staring at the moon
saw a shooting star and thought of you
i sang a lullaby by the water side and knew
if you were here i sing to you
you are on he other side
as the skyline splits in two
miles away from seeing you
but i can see the stars

so open your eyes and see
the way of the horizons meet
and all of the lines will lead
into the night with me
and i know these scars will bleed
but both of our hearts may bleed
all of these stars will guid us home

i can hear your heart on the radio beat
they are playing chasing cars and i thought of us
back to the time you were lying next to me
i looked across and fell in love
so i took your hand
but through landing streets i knew
everything lead back to you
so can you see the stars?
from where I'm standing
cause all of my heart is beating for you

i can see the stars