It was only you and I or not at all.

Something of God... flows into us from the blue of the sky, the taste of honey, the delicious embrace of water, even from sleep itself.

Part of me wants to wear leather jackets and red lipstick and be super sexy and break boy's hearts. But then I also want to wear sundresses and be sweet, cute, shy and giggly and never break boy's hearts. But love him and be cute together. But then there's a different part of me. that wants to be beautiful, smart and mysterious. And another part of me just wants to sit in bed and watch netflicks while I eat yam fries.

I'm clearly indecisive.

You are an explorer.

your mission is to document and observe the world around you.
as if you've never seen it before. take notes. collect things you find
on your travels. document your findings. notice patterns. copy. trace.
focus on one thing at a time. record what you are drawn to.

my darling,
you can't see it. can you? how like the moon you are. both of you so timid in yourselves; hiding pieces from the world. Then, there are those rare moments when you both are full, and it becomes hard to look away. You are ever so handsome.

A letter to my future daughter.

Don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who wouldn't have never given up on them. baby, inspire yourself before you inspire others. You can't teach love without knowing it. I know it's painful to say goodbye to someone you don't want to let go, but more painful to ask someone to stay, when you know they want to leave. Love is the most beautiful thing to have. It's hardest thing to earn and the most hurtful thing to lose. Remember all endings are also beginnings. Find someone that makes you smile even when  there's no reason to. For love is more than hugs and kisses. Love is about trusting each other, and having faith in your relationship.Work hard, stay positive, and good things will happen my baby girl. The right man will make you feel like you are the only woman in the world. 

And remember this my darling; Never change who you are for anyone. 

“Dreams are only dreams until you wake up and make them real.” — It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzin

old love letter to an old lover.

"Make no mistake. I never stopped loving you, handsome. I just stopped expecting you to love me back. I have a million things I want to talk to you about. A million  things we have to talk about. All I want in this world is you. I want to see you and talk. I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning."

It's a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you're ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it  now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.

I want to be someone you can't just lose
interest in so easily.
someone you want to be around
someone you want to
experience.

"If you see me getting smaller, I'm leaving, don't be grieving, just gotta get away from here. If you see me getting smaller, don't worry, and no hurry, I've got the right to disappear." - Waylon Jennings

“The wait is long, my dream of you does not end.” - Nuala O'Faolain

I want to smile more.
I want to stop missing people
who don't miss me.
I want to l o v e myself instead of
searching for,
Someone who makes me feel.
Like I am worth it.

These things are not going
To happen but I'll try my best
These things aren't going
To happen until I let myself
Let go and let The
Lord take control

These are the things that
I cannot stop thinking about
These are the things that
my heart earns for
to not be afraid of the road
ahead of me
but to embrace it
to let go, to be fine
with being
alone

C.B.