how come?

and with whats been done and gone, I guess you'll never know. what a way to care and here we are staring at each other, filling our heads with what we've done and a compass to show us what we've gone through. For after all that comfort that found us beneath those trees. I laid so many thoughts of you. Maybe I'm a fool to fall so quickly? for all that time spent away from you, I ran myself thin. Although we did celebrated the days we had. It was hard to keep myself from dreaming that you were here with me. For I still to this day question myself if I'm to blame for this. And even though you claimed it had nothing to do with me.. I still felt as though it did. Is it so hard to look my way now? Saddens me so to watch you walk past me in silence. To see a person I once knew, shared countless hours and memories together, walk past me like I'm a complete stranger. I stared at you, confused, and most utterly insulted to say the least. You probably have no idea how difficult it was for me to watch the person I so deeply cared for walk away and leave my heart on the table with out a single clue to what they done.