found an old entry from an old notebook on my journeys.

"You've told me that you've never been a man of many words. But you can speak only when you really need too. oh see darling, you said "that somethings are worth more when you say what you really mean." You said I was the morning sun and you were the night; ever growing brighter with every hello. And sometimes to get away from the madness of our lives. We would flicker and disappear into the skies. But oh to be, so easily - in love.

And in the autumn when the leaves would begin to fall. We would dream away our day, lying beneath our tree and you kiss my hand. You make the simply things so difficult, that at times I can't understand. I would get so tongue tided, so twisted up. And you'd get so mad. And I would run away with a flood of words; I didn't know I had. Oh to be, so easily - in love.

I met you on Sunday evening. I was all dressed in white. The band began to play as we'd stare into each others eyes. We'd share each others coffee's on that one fire-escape, under Octobers blooming moon. oh see my handsome, I couldn't shake you out of my mind. You fell for the dimples in my cheeks, you told me. And I couldn't help but, fall in love with your sad eyes, that summers night. Oh how our love did grow. oh to be, so easily - in love.

You never were a wealthy man. you worked your fingers down to bone. oh see my handsome, i don't think you ever complained to me. you turned what our hearts had into a home. we kept each other warm. oh how our love did grow. But when winter ran along into spring. it took its toll on everything. its not "my fault" everyone kept telling me. Your love is in my heart. a rushing light from the horizon. water form heaven. and so in my darkest stress i watch the sunrise. and remember the passion from your arms; flowing from your heart. Oh to be, so easily - in love.

We use to live in truth. the time when we use to share. The days we would hold each other and how I use to fall and you were always there to catch me. And in everything now i lay awake at night and wonder why. and now when I am quiet enough... i can still hear the grand-piano play. your voice so soft. oh how i want to be by your side. if only these wings could fly. and now i am in a far state, where i can't let my thoughts think of you, in these moments, i just want to be by your side. (if these wings could fly) oh damn these walls, in the moment they are ten feet tall - and i can't get to you. Surely as the sunrises I'll forget your face and will be living in truth again. And I will make my heart realize that these wings are broken."

- March 21st, 2012.
C.B.